How Can I Make My 2016 Better Than 2015?

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We do this every year. Or at least I know I do this every year. Vow to make our lives better or different. Make lists about things we should do to improve on what we did the year before. happy 2016

Most times we never remember or keep up with what we said we were going to do. My 2015 didn’t quite pan out the way I thought it would. Despite all of my ‘efforts’, it was probably the most mentally, emotionally challenging year I’ve had since the year after mom died in 2012.

Much of what happened I couldn’t really control. So I worked on what I could control…my faith. I made some small tweaks spiritually that have benefited me more than I could have ever imagined. I changed where I worship and I changed my approach. I think I was stuck and I couldn’t figure out what was going on. After mom died I was trying to make my life the way it was BEFORE she died. But, nothing ever really stays the same. That holds true for our faith and where we worship. I LOVED my previous church and it was so what I needed ‘when I needed it’. But, “AMD” (After Mom Died), I needed something else. I just didn’t know what that was. I was frustrated because I knew that my spiritual life wasn’t where it needed to be. My faith was always there, I just needed a fresh start. I was out with some really good friends and a conversation we had about faith was what I needed to jump start my path to reconnecting. What I love about my friendships is the fact that we can just talk about regular ‘stuff’ and in doing so it always seems to help…even while we’re just chatting over chips and cheese dip. I am so very grateful for the friends that God chose for me. They help me in so many ways, most times without even trying or realizing they are doing it. [That’s when you know God has blessed you with good friends. It should be effortless.]

This past fall, I was a part of two small groups from my new church that helped me get back on track spiritually. One group met on Sunday and one met on Tuesday. I didn’t have time to really focus on what wasn’t going right with me because the people in these groups kept me focused and honest. Even when they weren’t trying. Be it quick text messages or emails during the week or long discussions over food, it was refreshing and so very helpful. But guess what? I had to make the effort first. Sure there were times that I didn’t feel like going to our group outings. But when we make the effort to improve our situations we tend to have better outcomes. Meaning, nothing changes unless we DO SOMETHING. I finally decided to do something, but it took a lot of prayers and it wasn’t easy.

I’ve tried to make tiny parts of every day about my faith. Whether it’s reading a quick five-minute devotional via the First 5 app (it’s been really helpful; you should check it out) or listening to Joel Osteen on the way to work. Say what you will about Joel, but sometimes he says exactly what you need, when you need it. Most times when I get to work I tune in to my Pandora stations or listen to NPR podcasts.  My point is, I have intentionally tried to make my life and my surroundings about positive emotions and activities. Mom was a big fan of Norman Vincent Peale and she loved his books and his writings. Mr. Peale’s main focus was always about thinking positively, regardless of what is going on around you. His writings are timeless and timely.

After mom died, I realized that I was giving too much of myself to negative feelings. Grief is negative. Even though expressing it can cathartic, grief still brings forth negative feelings. I can’t do it. Not all the time. I still succumb to it at times, but I don’t allow it to overwhelm me any more. That alone is a minor miracle! But it CAN be done!

Since I couldn’t control a lot of what happened in 2015, I will work on what I can control.  So for 2016, I vow to work hard to remove any negative thoughts, feelings, attitudes, emotions or activities. I’m not normally a negative person anyway, but I am a realist so I know that negativity will creep in when you least expect it. I know that. It could be a daily occurrence if you let it. But, now I know what it feels like and looks like. For example, getting upset at a customer ahead of you in a check-out line who can’t find her money or whose credit card won’t go through? Why are WE upset? Who among us haven’t had moments where we needed others to be patient with us? So, whenever that happens, I just pick up a magazine and read articles while waiting for them to check out. Don’t huff and puff and make the person feel worse than they already do. If we’re really in that much of a hurry then we should go to the ‘self check-out’ line. Let’s try to be more compassionate and if you have problems doing that, then picture the woman in front of you as your mom or your grandmother. Patience and compassion for 2016!

I think making changes is more about incremental changes, not far-reaching, out-of-the box kind of changes. But just small, little things. We can’t continue to do the same things expecting a different outcome.

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Happy New Year!

So for 2016 I will continue to DO SOMETHING. I’m not really making resolutions; I’m just trying to make improvements. And really, you don’t have to wait for the “NEW YEAR” to do that. You can make those changes in March or August or October. Don’t wait until January to make changes NOW. Be it taking a class online or reading more books or clearing out the clutter. No one is stopping you. Making little changes a little at a time removes the pressure to do it all in January!

But you gotta put forth the effort and you gotta DO SOMETHING if you want things to change. Anything. It’s on you, no one else.

 

Money, Research and Saving Lives

I just need five minutes of your time.  Read about Lysa Buonanno. LysaBuonannoShe was diagnosed four years ago with Stage IV lung cancer. Right now she is on a targeted therapy drug, which means that drug is specific to her type of cancer (without going into a lot of details). This drug was made possible through research (money$$), clinical trials (money$$) and more research (more money$$). When you hear people talking about raising MONEY for research for any disease, not just lung cancer, it’s to help others live longer, more productive lives. And isn’t that what it’s all about?